Being sick all the time will make you old too soon. If you have a chronic illness the aging process can go into overdrive, at least so it would appear as I look into the mirror.
I'm dog tired...Tired to the bone...
There is a weariness of soul and body that can only be experienced by the those who are fighting one of the monsters of chronic illness. Sleep doesn't help.
Trust me I am a fighter from way back when. In another life , I like to think I might have been a warrior in the land of Amazonian women:
I remember leaving in tears because it had taken me seven months to get in to see him. Tears of anger, self pity,depression and frustration..... You know what? They all taste the same.
So I will soon begin the journey of more testing to see if I have Something Wicked This Way Comes ( or Came , almost 19 years ago).
Hopefully I won't have to juggle, I can't hold onto stuff anymore.....